Notes on a meditation experience
Today had an insight into that which stands Free or is never implicated in all the arising conditions of the body-mind with which we normally identify.
That which stands Free, just “rest-abides”, it seems to be where our attention would naturally rest if it was not constantly disturbed by stressful demands in our association with the body-mind. Ordinary life as we know it is a constant demand on our attention, in my life I conceive of it as “survival stress”, or the most basic form of self-contraction.
The place I rested today briefly, was free of any bound implication, any need for my attention to be absorbed in the ordinary round of events-money, food, sex, society, or to respond to any environmental demands. There was just profound rested-ease, it felt like my (our) native condition, free of disturbance, unperturbed, moveless, thought-free (though thinking was possible and clear) searchless, without dilemma and completely free of primal fear
It can also be described as natural, wherein the life lived in my conventional manner is unnatural, rooted in stress, craving and fundamental disturbance. To be absorbed there in motionless ease, seems to be what Adi Da calls “at-root” or “in-depth”. He also says that many non-humans (sentient beings) abide here whenever they are at rest, after having handled business they “contemplate’, he does not describe this contemplation as of a something, just the act of contemplation itself, everyone would allow this condition (beats any vacation, strategic meditation state, or entertainment possible), “Handle business and drop out !” is the Adept’s advice.
By convention a human being tends to do nothing other than “handle business”, here to “drop out” means to fall into the Heart Depth, rest there, abide there, the Sages and Great Ones did not hesitate about it, just dived in. It is not enlightenment as some claim, just native to all beings.
If you want to get technical it may be resting attention naturally at the causal root(1) of the being, not by any method or technique, it’s just where attention natively “sits” when all the hub-bub of life demands really fall away for periods of time. It feels structural or a natural progression or evolved state of our essential being, what I mean by this is it is not ephemeral (or at least less changeable) like so many internal states that come and go, but more like a stage of life of human possibility.
(1)The causal dimension is senior to and pervades both the gross and the subtle dimensions. It is the root of attention, or the essence of the separate and separative ego-”I”. The causal dimension is associated with the right side of the heart, specifically with the sinoatrial node, or “pacemaker” (the psycho-physical source of the heartbeat). Its corresponding state of consciousness is the formless awareness of deep sleep
